tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-46066517333670436462024-02-18T21:10:11.489-08:00such is life ~ c'est laviejesseyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16695070488566511641noreply@blogger.comBlogger12125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4606651733367043646.post-50695741026938333092009-04-25T16:39:00.000-07:002011-06-07T04:54:10.844-07:00Written a long time ago, I figued it deserved to be shared.<span style="font-family:courier new;"><span style="color:#336666;"><strong><span style="font-size:180%;">Fear</span></strong>. Everyone is scared of <em><strong>something</strong></em> weather they want to admit it or not. Im not talking about being scared of the<span style="font-size:85%;"> <strong>dark</strong></span>, scared of <strong><span style="font-size:85%;">heights</span></strong> or scared of <strong><span style="font-size:85%;">needles</span></strong>... Im talking about being scared of <strong><span style="font-size:180%;">life</span></strong>.. of what life might <em>throw</em> at you. This is a <strong>fear</strong> you can't just <em>avoid</em>. Its something you have to <strong>face</strong>, because weather we like it or not, by just <strong><em>breathing</em></strong> means <strong><span style="font-size:130%;">life</span></strong> is here. Its <strong>something</strong> you cant <strong><em>escape</em></strong>.. you cant <em>hide</em> from it. Sure you can <strong><span style="font-size:78%;">end</span></strong> your <strong><span style="font-size:180%;">life</span></strong>..but that would defeat the <strong>purpose</strong> of me even telling you my thoughts on it.<br />Growing up i <strong>remember</strong> life was this <strong><span style="font-size:130%;">amazing</span></strong> thing, it still is.. but back then it was like i was just <strong><em>floating</em></strong> through it taking in everything around me..<strong>absorbing</strong> all of the <strong><span style="font-size:130%;">beauty</span></strong> and <strong><span style="font-size:130%;">laughter</span></strong> and <strong><span style="font-size:130%;">smiles</span></strong> without a <strong><em>care in the world</em></strong>... <strong><span style="font-size:85%;">unfortunately,</span></strong> i <span style="font-size:130%;"><strong>grew</strong></span> <span style="font-size:180%;"><strong>up</strong></span>.<br />...And when i <strong>grew up</strong> things started popping up everywhere around me like i was in the middle of a <strong><em>feeding frenzy</em></strong> with <strong>blood thirsty sharks</strong> all trying to <strong><span style="font-size:130%;">eat</span></strong> me at once. If you have that <em><strong>outlook</strong></em> on <strong><span style="font-size:130%;">life</span></strong> it can be kind of <strong>stressful</strong> to keep everything to yourself because you dont want to feel <strong>inadequate</strong> or <strong>stupid</strong> for feeling that way so you put on a <strong><span style="font-size:130%;">giant smile</span></strong> <em>so no one knows</em>... maybe im just <strong><span style="font-size:130%;">crazy</span></strong> but thats what i felt like. thats why i was <strong><em>afraid</em></strong> of <strong><span style="font-size:180%;">life</span></strong>.<br />But then i met <strong><em>someone</em></strong> and he <strong>taught</strong> me, not by <strong>lecturing</strong> or him even knowing it, that <strong><span style="font-size:130%;">life</span></strong> is not something to be <em>afraid</em> of. Its an <strong>amazing</strong> battle that you have to take head on and eventually you will <strong><span style="font-size:130%;">conquer</span></strong> it. <strong><span style="font-size:130%;">Life</span></strong> is the <strong>journey</strong>, its each <strong>experience</strong> or <strong>event</strong> or <strong>moment</strong>. so i am no longer <em><strong>questioning</strong></em> <strong><span style="font-size:180%;">life</span></strong>, i am <strong>accepting</strong> it as it comes.<br /><strong><em>yeah</em></strong> i need to <strong>rethink</strong> what i am <strong>attempting</strong> to get at here... i mean it started out <strong><span style="font-size:180%;">strong</span></strong> but man did i <strong>digress</strong>... </span></span><br /><span style="font-family:courier new;"><span style="color:#336666;"><strong>Point is</strong>, <strong><span style="font-size:180%;">Life</span></strong> is a <strong><span style="font-size:130%;">gift</span></strong>. You take it as it comes and <strong>hopefully</strong> you <strong>choose</strong> to make the <strong><span style="font-size:130%;">best</span></strong> of it. <strong><span style="font-size:130%;">Not</span></strong> for <strong>anyone around you</strong>, but for <span style="font-size:180%;"><strong>yourself</strong></span>.<br /><br /></span><br /></span><span style="font-family:courier new;"></span>jesseyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16695070488566511641noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4606651733367043646.post-5441474430076866972008-07-09T11:34:00.000-07:002009-04-25T17:20:18.112-07:0010 things im grateful for or have learned this year<span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="font-family:georgia;"><span style="color: rgb(51, 0, 51);">10. I have <span style="font-size:180%;"><strong>learned</strong></span> that i wont get things done, or go anywhere in <span style="font-size:180%;"><strong>life</strong></span> unless i <span style="font-size:180%;"><strong>try</strong></span> or put forth effort. Its not like i learned this <span style="font-size:180%;"><strong>only</strong></span> this year, but i definitely <strong><span style="font-size:180%;">understand</span></strong> it now. Yes, its possible to barely skate by without hardly making a dent, but that's not going to fly in the <span style="font-size:180%;"><strong>real world</strong></span>.</span></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;"><span style="color: rgb(153, 51, 153);"><span style="color: rgb(102, 51, 102);">9. I am grateful for the ability to <span style="font-size:180%;"><strong>smile</strong></span>, even when i feel <strong><span style="font-size:180%;">miserable</span></strong>, (my <strong><span style="font-size:180%;">mother</span></strong> always said, "when you feel your <em><strong>worst</strong></em>, look your <strong><span style="font-size:180%;">best</span></strong>.") and it works. Even if at the time i feel like people can see right through the half-ass, kill me now look i call a smile, <em><strong>they buy it</strong></em>.</span> </span></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;"><span style="color: rgb(153, 51, 153);">8. I have learned that <em><strong>managing </strong></em>my <strong><span style="font-size:180%;">life</span></strong> does not only mean being clean and on time, but also <strong><span style="font-size:180%;">maintaining</span></strong> a clean room and car and<strong> <span style="font-size:180%;">budgeting</span></strong> <em>my </em><strong>money</strong> <strong><span style="font-size:180%;">wisely</span></strong>.</span></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;"></span><br /></span><span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="font-family:georgia;"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">7. I am grateful for <strong>my <span style="font-size:180%;">large</span> family</strong>, without them <strong>(all my brothers and sisters)</strong>, i would not be able to <strong><span style="font-size:180%;">cope</span></strong> with noise, <span style="font-size:180%;"><strong>deal</strong></span> with annoyances, be so <strong>down to earth</strong> and <strong><em>laid back</em></strong> and i wouldn't be the <strong><span style="font-size:180%;">strong</span> <em>leader</em></strong> i am <strong>today</strong>.<br /></span></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;"><span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 102);"><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">6. </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">I have learned that i need to <strong><span style="font-size:180%;">embrace</span></strong> every moment, because the <strong><span style="font-size:180%;">older</span></strong> i get, the <strong><span style="font-size:180%;">faster</span></strong> time flys by me.</span> </span></span><br /><br /></span><span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="color: rgb(255, 153, 255);"><span style="font-family:georgia;">5. I am grateful for the<strong> <span style="font-size:180%;">opportunity</span></strong> to live in such a <strong>rich</strong> and <span style="font-size:180%;"><strong>amazing</strong> </span>country full of <strong><span style="font-size:180%;">freedom</span></strong>, <strong>choice</strong> and the option to <strong><span style="font-size:180%;"><em>accelerate</em></span></strong>. </span><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;"><span style="color: rgb(192, 192, 192);"><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 255);">4. I have learned that <strong><span style="font-size:180%;">success</span></strong> is the product of <strong>discipline</strong>, <strong><span style="font-size:180%;">focus</span></strong>, <strong><em>drive</em></strong>, and <strong><span style="font-size:180%;">perseverance</span></strong>.</span> </span></span><br /><br /></span><span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 204);"><span style="color: rgb(153, 153, 153);font-family:georgia;" >3. I am grateful for my <strong>church community</strong>, <strong>Timmy Baugh</strong>, The entire <strong>Palmer family</strong> including the <strong>Watkins</strong>, The <strong>LaGro's</strong>, All the <strong>priests,</strong> Everyone who went on the <strong>Mexico trip</strong> and <strong><span style="font-size:180%;">tons</span></strong> more. Its just <strong>nice</strong> to have a group of people i can <strong>hang out</strong> with who won't do anything to<strong><span style="font-size:180%;"> jeopardize</span></strong> my <strong>faith</strong> or <strong>morals</strong>.</span><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;"><span style="color: rgb(102, 51, 255);"><span style="color: rgb(192, 192, 192);">2. I have learned that <strong><span style="font-size:180%;">i</span></strong> am my <strong>own</strong> <strong><span style="font-size:180%;">narrator</span></strong>, <strong>nobody</strong> <em>else</em> is going to <em>write</em> <strong><span style="font-size:180%;">my</span> story</strong> for me, as much as i want them to have the <em><strong>answers</strong></em> to all of my <em>questions</em>, its not gonna happen.</span> </span></span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 204, 204);font-family:georgia;" >1. I am grateful for <strong><span style="font-size:180%;">my family</span></strong> <strong></strong>who has taken such <strong>good</strong> care of me even though i have put them through <em><strong><span style="font-size:180%;">hell</span>.</strong></em> They will <strong><span style="font-size:180%;">always</span></strong> be there for me, especially when <em><strong>i mess up</strong></em> (<strong>sometimes </strong><span style="font-size:180%;">big<strong>-</strong></span><strong>time</strong>).</span></span>jesseyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16695070488566511641noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4606651733367043646.post-68129509339908790682008-07-03T11:25:00.000-07:002009-04-25T17:17:23.205-07:00Proud to be an American<span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);"><span style="font-family:georgia;"><span style="color: rgb(204, 204, 204);"><span style="font-size:130%;">There are <strong><em>some things</em></strong> about <strong>America</strong> that I would <strong><em>rather live without</em></strong>. But lets <strong>face it</strong>, I'm sure other people would gladly live without some things in <strong>my <span style="font-size:180%;">ideal</span> country</strong>. </span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">There is no denying that <strong><span style="font-size:180%;">America</span></strong> is an <strong><span style="font-size:180%;">amazing</span></strong> country with abundant amounts of <span style="font-size:180%;"><strong>opportunity</strong><span style="font-size:130%;">,</span><strong> education</strong><span style="font-size:130%;">, and</span><strong> choice</strong></span>. Just the idea that<strong><span style="font-size:180%;"> i am free</span></strong>....to <strong><span style="font-size:180%;">worship</span></strong> as i please, to <strong><span style="font-size:180%;">talk</span></strong> and <strong><span style="font-size:180%;">write</span></strong> and <strong><span style="font-size:180%;">do</span></strong> <strong><em>whatever</em></strong> i <strong>want</strong>. That is pretty <strong><span style="font-size:180%;">astronomical </span></strong>right there, i can <strong>be whatever i want</strong>. I can make my <strong>dreams</strong> <strong><em><span style="font-size:180%;">realities</span></em></strong>. I can <strong>live</strong> where i want, and <strong>work </strong>where i want. <strong>WOW</strong>. i mean, <strong><span style="font-size:180%;">WOW!</span></strong> Look at pretty much every other country. I was told that if a person makes at <strong><span style="font-size:180%;">least</span></strong> $20,000 a year they are in the <strong><span style="font-size:180%;">top 2%</span></strong> of the worlds <strong><span style="font-size:180%;">wealthiest</span></strong> people. Its almost <em>disgusting</em>. But we are so <strong><span style="font-size:180%;">blessed</span></strong>. Even when there isn't enough money for the <strong>name brand </strong>foods I'm ust to, but we still have just enough to <strong>cover</strong> groceries for the month even if we have to buy the<span style="font-size:180%;"> <strong>no brand name mayo</strong></span> instead of <strong><span style="font-size:180%;">best foods</span></strong>, or <span style="font-size:180%;"><strong>generic single-ply</strong> </span><span style="font-size:130%;">toilet paper instead of </span><strong><span style="font-size:180%;">Charman Ultra double quilted extra soft</span></strong> toilet paper, we still <strong>eat </strong>and <strong>live</strong> really <strong><span style="font-size:180%;">GOOD.</span></strong> I don't feel like a <strong><em>horrible</em></strong> person because of it, it just helps me <strong><span style="font-size:180%;">remember </span></strong>how <strong><span style="font-size:180%;">blessed</span></strong> we are. </span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">I am <strong><span style="font-size:180%;">proud to be an American</span></strong> because i have the <strong><span style="font-size:180%;">choice</span></strong> to go to college and get a really <strong>good</strong> paying job, be a stay at home <strong><span style="font-size:180%;">mom</span></strong>, or go to college, get a good job<em> <strong>and</strong></em> be a stay at home mom. I have so many <strong><span style="font-size:180%;">options</span></strong>. Sometimes there are so many that its almost<strong><em> overwhelming</em></strong>. I can practice my <strong></strong> faith <em><strong>without</strong></em> being <strong>persecuted</strong>. I can <strong>write</strong> whatever i want on this <strong><span style="font-size:180%;">blog</span></strong>. I can be a S<strong>enator</strong>, <strong>Governor</strong>, or even P<strong>resident</strong> if i put my <em>mind</em> to it. There are so many <strong><span style="font-size:180%;">possibilities</span></strong> and <strong><span style="font-size:180%;">opportunities</span></strong>. <strong><span style="font-size:180%;">America</span></strong> is all around a <strong><span style="font-size:180%;">great </span></strong>place to live. Even if we still should <strong><span style="font-size:180%;">get rid</span></strong> of a few things <strong>*cough..abortion (definition: the slaughtering of millions of innocent children and destruction of women's bodies and minds)</strong></span><br /></span><span style="font-size:180%;"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 204, 204);">God Bless the</span> <span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">U</span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">S</span>A.</strong></span></span></span>jesseyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16695070488566511641noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4606651733367043646.post-12219226323467064302008-06-16T22:12:00.000-07:002008-06-16T23:12:31.546-07:00Camping... Drewsen Style!<span style="font-size:130%;"><strong><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjDMzfGnrKqPuCR3vYO-YnXBrdaY3BDYBLXc1B-v3CTM13PVBaqqxP8aBCVeXjI-omyuOI5cIt5FoljaGC0Fp96EmLqrKQFZo5nyRMZ6wk6lCPTSeYar-hYeyWEZ8vfobf_yEun4ECnEzI/s1600-h/camping+with+nana+and+papa+059.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5212721734734976114" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; CURSOR: hand" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjDMzfGnrKqPuCR3vYO-YnXBrdaY3BDYBLXc1B-v3CTM13PVBaqqxP8aBCVeXjI-omyuOI5cIt5FoljaGC0Fp96EmLqrKQFZo5nyRMZ6wk6lCPTSeYar-hYeyWEZ8vfobf_yEun4ECnEzI/s320/camping+with+nana+and+papa+059.jpg" border="0" /></a>When my family goes camping, we go all out. We get as far away from civilization as we can. That means no bathrooms, no cell reception, and the only running water is the creek... We love it though. It's way more fun than any other vacation. Who would want to drive on a crowded highway to a musky city where you get to spend lots of money on mediocre meals, souvenirs and high priced gas! <a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhjN6lsZadsnKziqBeEFRbgLNKR7mrqMxTIxxgUcf2w6aDeD7oFv5Rs8a3YVNqWEe4MLZ7zbwEqVB2r6fXW8Z21PYdf5wcM7tqcPXAe_HWa7qyhoTYbODUOyuphelaHZZEWrpA1MqvuD-c/s1600-h/camping+with+nana+and+papa+106.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5212723251160097762" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; CURSOR: hand" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhjN6lsZadsnKziqBeEFRbgLNKR7mrqMxTIxxgUcf2w6aDeD7oFv5Rs8a3YVNqWEe4MLZ7zbwEqVB2r6fXW8Z21PYdf5wcM7tqcPXAe_HWa7qyhoTYbODUOyuphelaHZZEWrpA1MqvuD-c/s320/camping+with+nana+and+papa+106.jpg" border="0" /></a>Not to mention all the people running around trying to live their lives faster than burger king. I don't know about you, but fresh air, calm forests and slowing down really gets the edge off. So what if we get a little dirty and don't have to brush my hair. Its not the end of the world, not just yet... Our family's favorite spots, we make ourselves. This last trip we went up to the Trinity Alps, near where my Papa was raised. We drove around in the brush looking at remnants of what used to be. <a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgbBD4vM7ydCKZCQcyOC2LBqwwI0rrPIURpWOyV04YVtjyBEjz46TEcWwIMoE2W7_wl4d0c_45BylpG7sqOdE3M5zXqeLTXHS9xB9IZMYGmj8d4Skv6IS2k6N1u-Wikit_WCRyw3LQHg9Y/s1600-h/camping+with+nana+and+papa+116.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5212724160569055362" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; CURSOR: hand" height="199" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgbBD4vM7ydCKZCQcyOC2LBqwwI0rrPIURpWOyV04YVtjyBEjz46TEcWwIMoE2W7_wl4d0c_45BylpG7sqOdE3M5zXqeLTXHS9xB9IZMYGmj8d4Skv6IS2k6N1u-Wikit_WCRyw3LQHg9Y/s320/camping+with+nana+and+papa+116.jpg" width="265" border="0" /></a>My Papa explained how when he was about 12 years old, he put a horse shoe around a young tree and 60 years later when we got there and looked at it, it was still there! The tree had grown around it. It was a sight. We also got the opportunity to see an old 1930 Caterpillar, which we took off the radiator to put in our yard as decor (i know that sounds dumb, but it will tie in quite well)<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgw3lt9FEc7G3w8qe0ByUqBDI4WhKVfrXmAzBHcIqJocYhhfNpZQxOFFkI4WzUlWubuNttHGZD0GWRJMeaL6FI5j39C68Dkq5jJZJAQx9OdJZPNNRLFY7rOs-BfmyjHyiKhzDXmsGCWm64/s1600-h/camping+with+nana+and+papa+156.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5212725831287474338" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 158px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 96px" height="126" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgw3lt9FEc7G3w8qe0ByUqBDI4WhKVfrXmAzBHcIqJocYhhfNpZQxOFFkI4WzUlWubuNttHGZD0GWRJMeaL6FI5j39C68Dkq5jJZJAQx9OdJZPNNRLFY7rOs-BfmyjHyiKhzDXmsGCWm64/s320/camping+with+nana+and+papa+156.jpg" width="215" border="0" /></a></strong></span><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhp1X7Dt90HJpB9cZcSizwDxj9y9awbKXOkaUjhF4A3ng_zBIlvhbgd6_vJdchWwcNt6bPx6yVH0JK_GTobnTaXptv0xKv-Dyarph0mVhkyxBV9KYL75fQOqcxGFWPPORG8PHeIvmbWxSU/s1600-h/camping+with+nana+and+papa+157.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5212725024745439602" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 147px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 97px" height="136" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhp1X7Dt90HJpB9cZcSizwDxj9y9awbKXOkaUjhF4A3ng_zBIlvhbgd6_vJdchWwcNt6bPx6yVH0JK_GTobnTaXptv0xKv-Dyarph0mVhkyxBV9KYL75fQOqcxGFWPPORG8PHeIvmbWxSU/s320/camping+with+nana+and+papa+157.jpg" width="211" border="0" /></a>jesseyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16695070488566511641noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4606651733367043646.post-39666726441159760112008-06-16T21:42:00.000-07:002008-06-16T21:53:33.130-07:00<a href="http://www.inetours.com/New_York/Images/Brklyn/Brooklyn_Bridge_SnSt_3847.jpg"><img style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 174px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 241px" height="379" alt="" src="http://www.inetours.com/New_York/Images/Brklyn/Brooklyn_Bridge_SnSt_3847.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><div><span style="font-size:180%;"><span style="color:#333333;"><span style="font-family:lucida grande;"><strong>Discipline</strong> </span></span></span></div><div><span style="font-family:lucida grande;font-size:180%;color:#333333;">is the </span></div><div><span style="font-size:180%;"><span style="color:#333333;"><span style="font-family:lucida grande;"><strong>bridge</strong> </span></span></span></div><div><span style="font-family:lucida grande;font-size:180%;color:#333333;">between </span></div><div><span style="color:#333333;"><span style="font-family:lucida grande;"><span style="font-size:180%;"><strong>goals</strong> </span></span></span></div><div><span style="font-family:lucida grande;font-size:180%;color:#333333;">and </span></div><div><span style="font-size:180%;"><span style="color:#333333;"><span style="font-family:lucida grande;"><strong>accomplishment</strong>. </span></span></span></div><div><span style="font-family:lucida grande;font-size:180%;color:#333333;">-Jim Rohn</span></div>jesseyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16695070488566511641noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4606651733367043646.post-18517610573788603142008-06-16T21:29:00.000-07:002008-06-16T21:53:15.909-07:00Mistakes, Mistakes, Mistakes...It seems like every time the rest of my <strong>life</strong> starts to go <strong><span style="font-size:180%;">right,</span></strong> everything else wants to go <em><strong><span style="font-size:130%;">wrong</span></strong></em>. This has always baffled me and taken hold of me until i don't know anything else to do except just <em><strong><span style="font-size:130%;">give up</span></strong></em>. I know this is <span style="font-size:180%;"><strong>not</strong></span> the way I am supposed to live my <strong><span style="font-size:130%;">life</span></strong>. Although giving up has many <em><strong><span style="font-size:85%;">downsides</span></strong></em>, at the time of committing to give up, it sounds <em><strong><span style="font-size:130%;">easy</span></strong></em>. <strong>Unfortunately</strong>, the repercussions of my decisions catch up to me and cause more <strong><span style="font-size:180%;">pain</span></strong> which starts the cycle all over again...only this time it feels worse than it did before because I know what I am getting myself into when i <strong><span style="font-size:180%;">choose</span></strong> to give up. Another thing is when one person forgives and forgets and another person (involved or not) keeps bringing it all back up just leads to the person who already forgot to just get <strong><span style="font-size:130%;">madder</span></strong> and <strong><span style="font-size:180%;">madder</span></strong>.jesseyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16695070488566511641noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4606651733367043646.post-4898173166599072702008-06-16T15:05:00.001-07:002008-06-16T23:16:43.810-07:00quote of the day<a href="http://www.onmoneymaking.com/wp-content/uploads/2007/11/forrest-gump.jpg"><img style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 320px; CURSOR: hand" alt="" src="http://www.onmoneymaking.com/wp-content/uploads/2007/11/forrest-gump.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><div><strong><span style="font-size:180%;color:#333333;">Life is like a box of chocolates, you never know what your gonna get. -favorite movie of all time....Forest Gump</span></strong></div>jesseyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16695070488566511641noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4606651733367043646.post-35888557091560348792008-06-16T00:30:00.000-07:002009-04-25T16:29:44.747-07:00<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgHMbcQEl23T-0wS7DdWxGbmfXvzwO2EUiCDhl6rXiEYV89ouYTOGaL1OghGXFdsa-4n_YMJ31q_8DCeFYlxkdvwl4ESDgfjmAbU2wMlGgoChIqP0wbnO35hkOueXGzq5ebstraaLfTm4A/s1600-h/IMG_3335-1.jpg"><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span></a><span style="font-size:130%;"> </span>jesseyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16695070488566511641noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4606651733367043646.post-19604581269421935072008-06-15T23:03:00.000-07:002009-04-25T16:30:45.404-07:00True Blue Heeler<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiVtnZhZ3fsF3HzkImVLAD5q_zjIi5tQ8qbPo5vXOxBKGrbnqOXdGrvHs7pIjlox9FCZfUpcF3O8mCQbq3S2yjgNhyphenhyphenJwNmcgT4EsylT-4jVW71GGD1nDX1R5tEgTlpbA0AzG3mp82WMnwU/s1600-h/family+and+daisy%27s+puppies+2008+024.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5212358661448581314" style="margin: 0px 10px 10px 0px; float: left;" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiVtnZhZ3fsF3HzkImVLAD5q_zjIi5tQ8qbPo5vXOxBKGrbnqOXdGrvHs7pIjlox9FCZfUpcF3O8mCQbq3S2yjgNhyphenhyphenJwNmcgT4EsylT-4jVW71GGD1nDX1R5tEgTlpbA0AzG3mp82WMnwU/s320/family+and+daisy%27s+puppies+2008+024.jpg" border="0" /></a> <span style="font-size:130%;"><strong><span style="font-size:180%;">Daisy</span></strong> is my baby. She is <strong>my</strong> friend. <strong></strong> She is a little over a year old and I couldn't ask for anything more in a<span style="font-size:180%;"> dog</span>. She follows me around, listens when I call, and wont hesitate to <strong><span style="font-size:180%;">rip</span></strong> off your arm if you get to close. She is a <strong>crack</strong> up. I guess there is not much I could say about a dog, even if she is my <strong><span style="font-size:180%;">pride</span></strong> and <strong><span style="font-size:180%;">joy</span></strong>...but <strong>SHE</strong> can keep me going even when I want to quit, <strong>SHE</strong> loves me unconditionally even when she gets in trouble, and<strong> SHE</strong> is the best listener when i need to <strong><span style="font-size:180%;">whine</span></strong> about nothing just to feel better...</span><br /><p><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhu8JLEqPQNyRjjJgPlbwVsu3TP4Y-NJOsCbxCTTFPuYxSY1kCM6HLURVyx2VpD4R5_v7PP0vXBrncc4QA_ZQSZpdKQfsvFtqhBHODvyjPLtp3fR7423TE3m2kMDqTezvHDW_amXZLe1gI/s1600-h/camping+with+nana+and+papa+041.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5212358669279265698" style="margin: 0px 10px 10px 0px; float: left;" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhu8JLEqPQNyRjjJgPlbwVsu3TP4Y-NJOsCbxCTTFPuYxSY1kCM6HLURVyx2VpD4R5_v7PP0vXBrncc4QA_ZQSZpdKQfsvFtqhBHODvyjPLtp3fR7423TE3m2kMDqTezvHDW_amXZLe1gI/s320/camping+with+nana+and+papa+041.jpg" border="0" /></a><strong>Hats off to Daisy</strong></p>jesseyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16695070488566511641noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4606651733367043646.post-60445707288884046672008-06-15T22:15:00.000-07:002008-06-15T23:01:49.418-07:00<strong><span style="font-family:courier new;font-size:180%;">School...</span></strong><br /><span style="font-family:Courier New;"><strong>Since the moment I got in, I wanted out. Yes, there were good times and in general it wasn't as bad as I remember. </strong></span><span style="font-family:Courier New;"><strong>Nevertheless, I wanted out. </strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:Courier New;"><strong>I know I shouldn't regret the things I did or the <span style="font-size:130%;">choices</span> I made, but its so hard not to when I'm <span style="font-family:courier new;font-size:130%;">finally</span> done, and for the first time realize how I was holding myself back and depriving myself from gaining the <span style="font-size:130%;">education</span> I had the opportunity to obtain. Yes I worked hard, paid attention in class at least half the time, and did a fair amount of homework, but i made the conscious decision not to try or put</strong> <strong>effort into</strong> <strong>learning.</strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:courier new;"><strong>I am very greatful for my parents and all that they have done for me, and continue to <span style="font-size:130%;">do</span> for me. My mother is <span style="font-size:130%;">AMAZING. </span><span style="font-size:100%;">She has been married to my father a <span style="font-size:130%;">hard</span> working, <span style="font-size:180%;"><span style="font-size:100%;">back</span> </span><span style="font-size:130%;">breaking </span>carpenter for <span style="font-size:130%;">20</span> years and counting. They have <span style="font-size:180%;">7 KIDS</span>, I am the proud, unfortunate, and stubborn </span><span style="font-size:130%;">oldest. </span><span style="font-size:100%;">I am 18 years old, have the <span style="font-size:180%;">best</span> boy friend in the <span style="font-size:130%;">world,</span> and...I just graduated. </span></strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:courier new;"><strong><span style="font-size:100%;">My mom home schooled me up until 4th and 5th grade when she had her fifth child, <span style="font-size:130%;">Claire </span></span><span style="font-size:100%;">2 months early. After Claire began to grow and didn't require the amount of stressful attention and caring for, we went back to homeschooling....</span><span style="font-size:85%;">Until high school. </span></strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:courier new;"><strong><span style="font-size:100%;">I, being the strong courageous leader that I was took a giant leap into a first year charter school. Being the oldest in my family and the oldest at my school added to the confusion of growing and developing "like everyone else" I never knew what it was like to be below someone, I have always been the "top dog" or "big kid" of any group I associated with. My 3 1/2 years there were memorable and joyous, I loved my teachers, adored my friends and got by with <span style="font-size:130%;">low</span>, low <span style="font-size:85%;"><span style="font-size:78%;">C's... </span></span></span></strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:courier new;"><strong><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="font-size:180%;">Moral of the story</span>, I wish I would have tried <span style="font-size:180%;">harder </span>while I had the chance. The only thing I can do now is try harder the <span style="font-size:180%;">next time</span> and remember what I lost...</span> </span></strong></span>jesseyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16695070488566511641noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4606651733367043646.post-7505789031156525382007-09-03T18:13:00.000-07:002008-06-15T23:26:54.583-07:00SonsOfDay<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi46fhrNKY4I9lotPcLd1BExkRHHv2upu_Q4I3RhDTYbnX_sn_BvMaSrpDaMzSJoLWkYxAAWGXpeLCo0-BOJ4mg_bMoZCi1en8MHtpwnwyqa3sQnjoU_79qqpM3xpSSRm0CtgiX7HJHjpc/s1600-h/the+thirsting+sons+of+day+scotty+01.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5106151357512774114" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; CURSOR: hand" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi46fhrNKY4I9lotPcLd1BExkRHHv2upu_Q4I3RhDTYbnX_sn_BvMaSrpDaMzSJoLWkYxAAWGXpeLCo0-BOJ4mg_bMoZCi1en8MHtpwnwyqa3sQnjoU_79qqpM3xpSSRm0CtgiX7HJHjpc/s320/the+thirsting+sons+of+day+scotty+01.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><div>the thirsting and sons of day stayed at my house and we had a good time. they are pretty cool bands. very nice too. My boy friend Joe and I are looking forward to promoting another concert here in redding, only bigger, way bigger. So wish us luck and Come support our Mexico Mission Trip....</div><div>THANKS EVERYONE!</div>jesseyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16695070488566511641noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4606651733367043646.post-45331357407892175292007-07-21T11:48:00.000-07:002007-07-21T12:01:27.355-07:00camping trinity alps<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhpHfUVlfwiQPSxYIJBhWdbdKvSFuUU7h-_hocG7nBvfbnorPxeOLDyCbLp8uAps8EH7qMS-jNm6hti-IXICUSoDH8maSqAVb0MRoVhpHi_6Ie6WKj8v0ytbssfjExs2bqb0EHcsbhg_UA/s1600-h/cmping+trinity+alps+070.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5089726826213638242" style="FLOAT: right; MARGIN: 0px 0px 10px 10px; CURSOR: hand" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhpHfUVlfwiQPSxYIJBhWdbdKvSFuUU7h-_hocG7nBvfbnorPxeOLDyCbLp8uAps8EH7qMS-jNm6hti-IXICUSoDH8maSqAVb0MRoVhpHi_6Ie6WKj8v0ytbssfjExs2bqb0EHcsbhg_UA/s320/cmping+trinity+alps+070.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgKdxoXCIePaDzqBLIv7vO6mHuEE6_xb4N63fmo62O1GQjQ6Udc4lRDLsvbLF47Pqq6mnh6WXbrHDaf-aTlehCGBFP1Ph50pbbR9cHxvNA6ERRH5FwXqillyYH9fb9I356OdwFm5w231rI/s1600-h/cmping+trinity+alps+179.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5089726276457824338" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; CURSOR: hand" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgKdxoXCIePaDzqBLIv7vO6mHuEE6_xb4N63fmo62O1GQjQ6Udc4lRDLsvbLF47Pqq6mnh6WXbrHDaf-aTlehCGBFP1Ph50pbbR9cHxvNA6ERRH5FwXqillyYH9fb9I356OdwFm5w231rI/s320/cmping+trinity+alps+179.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><div><br /><br /><br /><div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi9Q9nxn1whf0LbzTvzIRmImQDvnvan8ZsO8LDWLFkCuzzEANWFqAUFHxQEPy0HvOdqwslaUQ-TQ-3wgu4nmlqI_gSq09eg-ZwnaRpIHXTlStyNluM8q8kkOhefJHev4CddjHHPSG602zY/s1600-h/cmping+trinity+alps+028.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5089725980105080898" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; CURSOR: hand" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi9Q9nxn1whf0LbzTvzIRmImQDvnvan8ZsO8LDWLFkCuzzEANWFqAUFHxQEPy0HvOdqwslaUQ-TQ-3wgu4nmlqI_gSq09eg-ZwnaRpIHXTlStyNluM8q8kkOhefJHev4CddjHHPSG602zY/s320/cmping+trinity+alps+028.jpg" border="0" /></a><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjLc2-6KBOyvJujY5AWpxaO8W5yFO30rbUzugAmLealH2C1nta5exgtxB_LG_nAdohKekvwDDLB-6QP4g1SVuvZNmRiQQuIVRPIdO9_F82c5qOa5BQVgFsYuvmsSN3IYkjhukx3V2oe4w8/s1600-h/cmping+trinity+alps+033.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5089725748176846898" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; CURSOR: hand" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjLc2-6KBOyvJujY5AWpxaO8W5yFO30rbUzugAmLealH2C1nta5exgtxB_LG_nAdohKekvwDDLB-6QP4g1SVuvZNmRiQQuIVRPIdO9_F82c5qOa5BQVgFsYuvmsSN3IYkjhukx3V2oe4w8/s320/cmping+trinity+alps+033.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhCMQHiomhsGIz1fBbymWEWnk9mS27iROnOTCVD-p_XzsJ9EBnx_gHa14HqrDZNj-bNuabs9MYQV997jRPquyPrnb86jRe4cgFiEGn0FmmmSIO6viuclpbm2lWRex7zIskLAYjcExH9fJs/s1600-h/cmping+trinity+alps+020.jpg"></a><br /><br /><br /><div><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhCMQHiomhsGIz1fBbymWEWnk9mS27iROnOTCVD-p_XzsJ9EBnx_gHa14HqrDZNj-bNuabs9MYQV997jRPquyPrnb86jRe4cgFiEGn0FmmmSIO6viuclpbm2lWRex7zIskLAYjcExH9fJs/s1600-h/cmping+trinity+alps+020.jpg"></a><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhCMQHiomhsGIz1fBbymWEWnk9mS27iROnOTCVD-p_XzsJ9EBnx_gHa14HqrDZNj-bNuabs9MYQV997jRPquyPrnb86jRe4cgFiEGn0FmmmSIO6viuclpbm2lWRex7zIskLAYjcExH9fJs/s1600-h/cmping+trinity+alps+020.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5089724923543126050" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; CURSOR: hand" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhCMQHiomhsGIz1fBbymWEWnk9mS27iROnOTCVD-p_XzsJ9EBnx_gHa14HqrDZNj-bNuabs9MYQV997jRPquyPrnb86jRe4cgFiEGn0FmmmSIO6viuclpbm2lWRex7zIskLAYjcExH9fJs/s320/cmping+trinity+alps+020.jpg" border="0" /></a></div></div></div></div></div>jesseyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16695070488566511641noreply@blogger.com0